Ever since I figured out that the biggest thing that bothered me about the situation was feeling like she was trying to take my mother’s role and decided that I didn’t have to let that happen, I have just been fine with everything. Even talking to her about the baby and stuff doesn’t bother me. I think the biggest change is just mentally. I sort of mentally sectioned off those pieces of my heart and that was all it took. Of course it could be this little nugget-man. He could be in there with a needle and thread sewing up my heart and making me feel whole again. Whoa this post is getting too touchy feeling. Gotta go peeps.
So I know a few of you might have been curious since I wrote here about how supposedly my dad got married, but I wasn’t sure. I did end up calling him and leaving a message. He got back into town last night and left me a message….I went to bed a little early, I can’t help it, I have been so sleepy and now that it is Fall all I want to do is curl in bed and read which leads to falling asleep early. Anyhoodles, we’re playing phone tag. But his
girlfriend whoops I guess it is wife now, that is weird, e-mailed me today with a couple of photos. Sorry for the poor quality they were in the body of the e-mail and I had to copy it and then print it as a pdf and then convert it to a jpeg. Basically lots of computer magic had to be done to get it into the blog. But it looks like it happened. And you know what I thought when I looked at it? I thought ‘wow my dad is pretty handsome’. I was kind of shocked too that I didn’t feel some sort of pang of sadness or something negative. But you know what I think? I think maybe I am over those feelings.